I am an amateur who plays cornet just for self-satisfaction. I love to do it, in fact I have to do it, because it is a means of self-expression that I put my heart and soul into. Even if nobody else wants to hear me play, I must still play because it means so much to me. You have your own idea of what tone you want to have, you have your own idea of what style you want to have, and you should continue to pursue that, even if nobody else understands it or appreciates it. In his own lifetime, Vincent van Gogh never sold even one painting, except for the one his sold to his own brother, because people viewing his paintings did not appreciate them. But Vincent felt compelled by his love of painting to continue painting anyway. Pursue your own tone and your own style according to your own heart, regardless of whether other people appreciate it. Of course, that assumes that you will always be a soloist. Because if you ever need to join a band, then you will immediately have to start conforming to the tone and style that others demand of you. .