So I was cleaning the bathrooms at work today (this is where I do most of my deep thinking) when I realized the answer to a question I've had for a long time. I usually play exponentially better during practice at home than I do at school or at my lessons. So as I was scrubbing toilets and sinks (there is another part of the story dealing with the girls bathroom, but thats for a different day), I realized that the problem was my reason for playing. My schedule is pretty hectic so getting into a daily routine isn't possible, so I pretty much just practice whenever I can. If I have nothing going on all day, its not unusual for me to practice for 4-6 hours off and on in a day. Somedays, like today and yesterday, I'm lucky to get in 30 minutes of practice. I practice not because I'm forced to by my parents like some people I know, I do it because I enjoy it. I've recently started playing nothing but low C's as soft and long as I can for about 15 - 20 minutes each morning and as boring as some people make it out to be, I think nothing of it. When I go to school though my whole mindset changes from enjoyment to focused on learning. I don't remember where I was going with this, but the whole point is, make sure you don't forget the joy in music. Discipline and structure are important, but what is the point of doing something you hate?