Gents and Ladies, I am posting this because as of late, I have a real lack of motivation where playing trumpet is concerned and I'm not quite sure what to do about it, although I'm fairly certain that I know what caused it. About a month ago I took an audition for what would have been a full time playing gig. I worked my butt off for about 6 weeks prior to the audition date (from the day I first learned of the opening) but I never really got to where I felt I could really be competitive. However, I went and auditioned anyway.... and crashed and burned like you wouldn't believe. With all of the work that I put in, with all of the improvement I had made, I probably played at slightly less than 50% of my capability, and soon after my audition started, I was summarily dismissed. It wasn't that I got beat by another musician - I never got past the first round. I had a case of nerves that I just couldn't shake (so much for all of my posts saying that I wouldn't want to rely on beta blockers!) and I just fell apart under the audition stress. I don't know how others would take an experience like this, but for me, it was a pretty solid shot to the ol' ego. I keep telling myself that even had I played at close to 100%, I still wouldn't have won the job anyway (they ended up offering the spot to a guy who auditioned the week before after it was turned down by another guy who auditioned with me that day - GREAT player!) but now that the event has come and gone, and my goal of winning the spot was unrealized, it has taken a serious toll on my desire to strive to improve as a trumpet player. The funny thing is that I told myself that no matter what the outcome, I was just going to keep on keepin' on, and that I would continue to put in the hours of practice and hard work necessary to keep improving. My concern is that I'm going to fall back into the pattern that I had set of practicing to maintain, which eventually led to a real slide in my chops and abilities. So, if anyone has had similar experiences and has any tips for reinvigorating oneself to practice, send your advice my way.