Pat- I feel for ya, bud. I've been there a few times myself. Most recently in July. I am also feeling a bit of lack of motivation. Usually for me, if I start working after a break I pick right back up again. As the distance between my lost audition increases, and my involvement with my students and family remains constant, I can only be reminded of what's really important in my life. We can look at mistakes as disasters or, as we term them at school "constructive failures" to be learned from. The key is to find the lesson. I examined my life and the lives of the other candidates and took the opportunity to take stock of the diamonds in my back yard. I am sure you have a few of your own. It is not the critic who counts, not the man who points out where the strong stumbled, or how the doer could have done better. The credit belongs to the man in the arena, his face marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and falls short again and again: there is no effort without error. But he who tries, who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, who spends himself in a worthy cause, at best knows the triumph of achievement, and at worst, fails while daring. His place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat." Teddy Roosevelt" Given your old avatar, thought you might find this helpful.