Patric, I think part of the problem is, you don't play music for a living. I'm sure all professional musicians wish what you say was the unadulterated truth... unfortunately common sense and and your ability to survive in the world come into play... those two things dictate that in order to survive in the modern "work place" as a professional musician, you are going to have to, at times, create music that you do not enjoy, in order to get paid... at that point, making, or playing, or creating music, no matter how much you love your horn, is probably not going to be any fun. You should pay close attention to what Wilmer and the others tell you. I know you eventually want to make music the center of your universe... I worry that if you go into with a bunch of idealistic thoughts that when it doesn't work out the way you hope, you will give up music and your horn all together.