I am very frustrated with myself. We were reading through some new stuff last night, cut time, and lot's of off-beat stuff. Somehow, I understand if you will, I can tell you how it's supposed to divide up, how it should be counted or whatever, but when trying to play it, I find it impossible to count, well almost impossible, if I sat down and wrote out 1e+a2e+a on the music I'd probably be ok, but no time for that in a group. I don't think it's just the tempo either, I was working through some Arban's stuff as an assignment from my teacher, trying to play with the metronome nice an slow. Similar situation, here, a rhythmic pattern similar to previous exercises that I had no trouble with, but on off-beats. It drove me nuts. I resorted to putting it into finale notepad and timing my mouse-click with the metronome and playing it over and over to get it right. Using finale notepad is probably a crutch I should not have resorted to, but it got me practicing the music properly and was expedient for the short term. I don't know what to think. I think that as a kid, marching kind of tied it all together because there were lots of queues going on, either what someone else was playing, or what was happening in the drill? Very frustrating.