Somewhere I remember a university study which proved that a sizable percentage of people were more afraid of public speaking than death. Maybe someone else can help me out with the specifics/link. Anyway, as I recall a large group, maybe even a majority were significantly more afraid of speaking before an audience than they were of their own death. And if this is true it would follow that had this group known how to play the trumpet I conclude they would be substantially more worried about playing a solo in front of a musical ensemble than public speaking. Seems to stand to reason from my own experience. So I figure that the average trumpet player who performs at a decent level and used to playing solo in public often is either wired differently than the average bear or... Or he has sustained some kind of psychological adjustment along the way. We know that people in life or death experiences are getting more Adrenalin sent to the brain. And if a public speaker or trumpet player is continually exposed to the same or worse psychological trauma then it would appear that his mind and body has shifted to accomodate this stress. It might be that the trumpet player's mind and body has changed to secrete more Adrenalin or other hormones than that found in the body of someone in the general public. A possible reason for anxiety atttacks, neurosis and other maladies that humans seem to face more often these days: The body's reaction to stress is to develop the ability to send more Adrenalin or other chemicals to the bloodstream. In some cases the stress gets channeled to help the performer play stronger and better. I've seen this in my own playing. When in my younger days I might have been feeling knock kneed in perfomance. Now my mind has now long since grown to receive the physical jolt the Adrenalin gives. It's usually a welcome condition. the extra boost to get in to the music and deliver the sound in an aggresive manner. Always important to be noticed in modern commericial jazz or rock. So in a way I am much more likely to perform better in concert than in rehearsal. Certainly better than just mere practice. Then on the other hand the stress the mind takes from playing the trumpet publicly could result in certain unpleasant reactions. Heavy drinking, prescription and recreational to excessive drug and pill usage etc. Or maybe after years and years of stress related playing the trumpet player finds he must use blood pressure lowering meds or anti depressants in order to perfrom. Speculation on my part but probably true. I think we'd all agree to some extent that good trumpet players are different than the general masses. It also follows in my mind that the trumpet player doesn't leave his personality behind after leaving the bandstand. After enduring these metaphorical "life & death" scenarios on a regular basis for years and years he most likely has a far different perspective on ordinary living concerns than your average Joe. Ordinary people do not thrive on risky situations. They avoid making embarassing scenes and try to keep a firm grip on things. Trumpet players, on the other hand, have lived their whole teen and adult lives sitting next to a fifteen story verticle drop with no handrail and a significant breeze blowing out. So under these stressful conditions a specific psychological profile is developed. My hypothesis? Trumpet players are among the social rule breakers of our world. I mean why not? They've lived in the same combat level experience (in their own minds) for decades while the person from general public's worst concern might be to run a little late on the home electric bill. So I can always pick a trumpet player out of a crowd. Even when his horn is in the trunk of the car. Sets my antennae off. He has a certain edge in his personality. I can't describe it exactly but just know it's there. A trumpet player can get away with social struggles like arguments, disputes, problems with authority and what not better than the average man or woman. The person from the general public has always avoided messy scenes, and conflicts. But for the trumpet players? Well that's his daily routine. I had a friend from high school who was a decent lead trumpet player. Especially for his age. And yet he was egotistical, wild and loved to stir up controversy and get attention. One time after a football game he used some very inappropriate language directly to the band leader of the other school in full witness of his own director and all the rest of us kids... Incredible! Unheard of words from back in those days. I've always wondered if he was taking analbolic steroids but that's another story. So I say that the good lead trumpet player is like a high wire aerial gymnast. He not only walks the edge of the skyscraper fifteen floors up, but he jumps up and down on the flagpole and rolls himself in the cloth of Old Glory. And this is so even when the horn is in his case. He can be a problem for others who don't relate to his life experience. The trumpet player scares the hell out of them.