Hi all, I've got my MM auditions (for my second master's, this time in performance) next weekend. I've been preparing for some time now and I've been listening a ton, planning out my phrases and musical gestures, practicing a lot, performing as much as I can, playing mock auditions for people, playing auditions after running up and down a flight of stairs (to simulate an elevated heart level), keeping track of all my playing, my sleeping habits, etc. It always seems that when I'm in a performance situation, I can really step up and rise to the occassion - except for the lessons I had with the teachers at one of the schools where I'll be auditioning. Because I didn't play great, I really want to show them a true representation of my playing at the audition. As I mentioned, I've been preparing as best as I can (especially with the time constraints of finishing up my master's thesis) and everything had been going really well until today. Today I did a "mock audition day" I warmed up early, waited 4.5 hours (to simulate traveling to the school, registering for auditions, taking placement tests, etc.) Gave myself 30 minutes of prep time (maybe too generous) to do a little bit of feel good playing and resting (flow studies, clark, starting all of my material) and then I peformed a mock audition for myself. I played horribly - my endurance was crap, and because I was doing whatever I could to get through my stuff, my musicality really suffered - and that it usually my strong point. My endurance, response, centering, it all suffered greatly too. I'm not sure if I freaked because I was tired or if I became tired because I was being ineffecient. It seemed like I was gripping my horn more tightly with my left hand and pressing it against my lips more. This happens more when my ring finger is in the 3rd slide ring instead of my middle finger (I've got big hands, it'll work with my middle finger in the ring). Anyway, I think I'm just venting because I'm excited to go back and play better and perform! Today just scared me because I thought I had taken care of being able to make it all the way through the audition - with chops to spare. If anyone wants to offer words of wisdom or advice, I'm all ears. Thanks.