| Bear,
Look on the bright side. You have pointed out all the things that are bothering you and you know that they are problems. Think about it for a minute. What can you do?
1.) You 'suck' at your axe.
You can leave it alone for a while. Take a break. Come back to it tomorrow. Practice something that you really loved to play at one point....even if it's a solo you played in 6th grade!
2.) You 'suck' at 'everything'.
You can breathe just fine, right? You can talk, yes? You are you. You can't physically suck at doing any of those things. So, no, you don't suck at everything.
3.) You are in debt.
This is a problem that can be solved. It may take a long time, but it will be solved. Do odd jobs, look over your budget and cut things you don't really need, call up somebody to help you manage. Since I'm only in HS, I don't know too much about what to do here...
4.) You have no friends.
Hello? What are we? Chopped liver? We're here to help you. You have people from all over the world that talk to you on the internet daily. Are you sure you have no friends?
5.) You keep getting in trouble for things you don't do/should have done.
Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda. Those are in the past. You can't change what you did or do what you should have. Think now. What can you do now? Learn from your mistakes and move on!
6.) You're fat.
Get up and go! Do something new....try biking or walking. Exercise not only will help your weight, it will also help your energy and your mood. It makes you feel good. It really does.
FEELINGS OF SUICIDE SHOULD BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY. CALL THE HOTLINE AND TALK TO THE PEOPLE THERE. THEY WILL HELP YOU, THEY CAN HELP YOU. TALK TO US EVEN, LIKE YOU HAVE. JUST DON'T DO ANYTHING RASH.
Bear, we all love you and want the best for you. Really. Don't do this to yourself. Please...if you need someone to talk to, someone to vent at, you can PM me. I promise I won't judge you or anything. I'm a very good listener, and I've been through these feelings myself. I mean it. If you need to vent, just PM me and say whatever you need to. It'll make you feel better.
Lara
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