Hello all,
I am a comeback player, FYI, and have found my way to a pro for some instruction.
I was fine until I got the email back from him saying that he'd be glad to work with me and then set me up for a session at 5Pm today.
I'm freaking out! It's funny here I am at 36 soon to be 37 years old, I got one look at this guys bio and now I can't even blow a solid note on my horn in private let alone if front of this guy!
Is this normal? Some background, I've only had instruction through the public schools in the metro Detroit area in the early 1980's. I've never been in a private setting which is what I think is part of my "freaking out"
I greatly value the opinions of some folks who post out here and I'm hoping you'll chime in and povide me with some suggestions to help me relax here. I think more then anything I've just come to the sudden realization that for the first time in my life, that I know of, I'll be playing in front of someone who I don't belong alongside of! I've never felt that.
If I could be allowed the comparison without the judgement for being sac-religious, for me it's like standing in front of the allmighty for judgement and I'm sure that I won't like what I'll hear.
Perhaps I'm unfairly judgeing how this fella is going to be with me. I'm sure it won't be a fire and brimstone, "Oh man you suck" but I really feel that's what his opinion will be. Strange, I don't know why this is bothering me so much!
Oh well, someone, anyone, Help!
I'll be watching, thanks for any tips!
Just in case you might wonder, I'll be taking instruction from Dr. Moffatt Williams, he's the Associate Professor of Trumpet at Columbus State University. His bio can be found here ======>
http://music.colstate.edu/faculty/faculty.asp?strRef=13
This would be like me setting in with Manny, EC, or Wilmer. I'd feel the same way for sure.