| Re: Help; vent
So here are the possibilities:
1) She may have a caustic sense of humor and just thinks she's being funny just as a director or directors were with her when she was coming up. It's a technique that I use in rehearsal on a limited basis but I choose my targets carefully. In other words, they're good players that have known me for years and know that I'm only joking. I'd never do that with a newbie.
2) She simply doesn't get it because you make it look easy up to a point and then you give out and she doesn't understand. It's your job to explain it to her if this is the case without making yourself look like a weenie.
3) You might be oversensitive. There's no way for anyone here to judge without sitting next to you in rehearsal. However, I can tell if I've said something to someone and their reaction is not a good one. It's not brain surgery to be able to see if someone is angry or crestfallen. I always ask if we're okay if I sense something's not right.
a) Does she say something mean and then you laugh it off but are secretly hurt?
Do you have to be in the ensembles she conducts for credit? Is it worth it?
Why would your teacher decide to make you feel you're inferior? Is she mentally ill? An adult who chooses a student to mock and belittle for her own aggrandizement is sick. Is that what you're saying when you say she uses "public humilitiation to make [you] feel inferior"?
Understand that I'm not saying you don't have a point. I'm asking you to look at the situation a bit more organically so you can have a better understanding of what may be going on.
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