Finally, I'm 1st chair trumpet player, I have the opprotunity to show this small town band what it means to be a brass player, I play out but not too loud, I make the music exciting and I lead the section with disicpline and respect. I felt proud of myself, I don't know if you guys heard of "Big Noise from Winnetka" but the begging chorus I Have as a solo, before actual performance, I ROARED, I got it stuck in everyone's head with high notes galore. But during performance (well the quick practice before) I couldn't play propertly, I don't know what was up, it's like playing bad on guitar hero. I don't think I was nervous but I had this hard solo in the bag. At least I thought, now I Can't play anything without something messing me up. I don't know what's up, my solo now has a couple screw ups and I'm the 1st one heard for melodys. I practice and practice but same thing, I'm very discouraged, my playings not on it. It's like I have it in my head but my lips suck to execute it. :( its never happened before, will this go away cause the band is so small I'm relied on pretty heavily. We have 3 other trumpets, 2 are completely disruptive and wont concentrate and the 2nd chair (like 80% of the band) does not play out at all.
Sorry for the long rambling and I appreciate you reading this is anything I can do? Please tell me this is temporary.