As a youth I was not allowed by my very strict religeous father to listen to or play anything but gospel hymns, classical and marches. There was to be no pops, jazz of any variant, bebop, rock and roll, etc. in his home. I am now principal trumpet in one community concert band and utility trumpet in another. The conductors I have played under all have a major complaint with me. I don't enjoy those other forms of music and I am not able to play them well. I can play jazz in a mechanical fashion with no feeling or inflection, which irritates the conductor greatly. I just play the spots as they are written.I use no inflection at all on such music, because I don't like or wish to play it. My conductors don't seem to understand that I have no feeling for these forms of music and can't hear the music in my head. How do I convince my conductors that I would rather sit out whatever jazz selections he gives us to play, rather than listen to him rail at me about playing with no feeling?