I have a big Tennessee All-Midstate audition coming up on December 13th. My instructor says I could go from anywhere from the top of the state to not even placing at all due to my performance anxiety. I will be asked to play my chromatic scale, a one-octave major scale and a two-octave major scale, two prepared excerpts, and three sight reading pieces in ascending difficulty.
The scales will come first, and these are crucial to my advancement and confidence. I know my scales well, but, occasionally, when I imaginatively place myself in the audition room and perform my scales, my fingers literally die and I screw up scales that I usually play really quickly and well. I have worked ages for this audition...before everyone else started caring.
The scales are not the only culprit. My fingering ability during tricky, but generally mastered passages in my prepared excerpts, goes out the window as well.
My sight-reading ability is my weakness, and this is the one section of the audition that I feel confident and almost anxiety free, since the judges are more lenient regarding cracked notes and such...my perception of this audition is truly an enigma.
I have been trying to shake this performance anxiety for weeks, but I have failed thus far.
What should I do? I realllllllly want to do well.